cream.
i just dont have the brains!
chemistry + mathematics + lack of understanding = torture to the power of 1000000.
add another variable to the equation, in this case, A SERIOUSLY FUCKED-UP INTERNET CONNECTION, and you've hit the jackpot.
i feel like curling up in bed and hiding. it's literally torture because not understanding something you're required to understand... its not supposed to be like that. what's worse is the fact that i am sitting all alone, all by myself, in the front row, with virtually zero friends in class! i feel like i could die just sitting there, not knowing how to solve certain maths/chem questions especially when i have nobody to turn to! i dunno about you, but this is not how i planned everything to be! and there's the connection going on and off and on and then off again. it is just driving me up the wall. I CANNOT HANDLE ALL THIS RIGHT NOW! MY GOD!
exhales
exactly what have i gotten myself into? and then there's the rumours of how we have to stay back at school until at least 4pm, starting right after the holidays? mother-eff!!! ridiculous. absurd. INSANE! my burning hatred for school has finally been rekindled, i just need somewhere or someone to express it to. ever heard of those places where you pay to enter and smash dishes? yea... why dont they have them here? WHY? i'd be a regular customer. it'd make good business. WHY???
i find that i have frequent but minor panic attacks. sometimes, my heart just starts to beat so fast, so rapidly. i start to sweat. breathing becomes a bit more difficult. all for no apparent or rather silly reasons. why me? egad, how am i suppose to cope? i feel so hopeless. it's only the 2nd week of school and the pressure's already killing me. does everyone feel that way, or am i just putting too much on my shoulders? i am very well aware of how bad my maths and chemistry can be, so isnt it natural to worry? isnt it?
so many questions... gawd. SOMEONE ANSWER ME!
i cant take anymore. I CANT.
chemistry + mathematics + lack of understanding = torture to the power of 1000000.
add another variable to the equation, in this case, A SERIOUSLY FUCKED-UP INTERNET CONNECTION, and you've hit the jackpot.
i feel like curling up in bed and hiding. it's literally torture because not understanding something you're required to understand... its not supposed to be like that. what's worse is the fact that i am sitting all alone, all by myself, in the front row, with virtually zero friends in class! i feel like i could die just sitting there, not knowing how to solve certain maths/chem questions especially when i have nobody to turn to! i dunno about you, but this is not how i planned everything to be! and there's the connection going on and off and on and then off again. it is just driving me up the wall. I CANNOT HANDLE ALL THIS RIGHT NOW! MY GOD!
exhales
exactly what have i gotten myself into? and then there's the rumours of how we have to stay back at school until at least 4pm, starting right after the holidays? mother-eff!!! ridiculous. absurd. INSANE! my burning hatred for school has finally been rekindled, i just need somewhere or someone to express it to. ever heard of those places where you pay to enter and smash dishes? yea... why dont they have them here? WHY? i'd be a regular customer. it'd make good business. WHY???
i find that i have frequent but minor panic attacks. sometimes, my heart just starts to beat so fast, so rapidly. i start to sweat. breathing becomes a bit more difficult. all for no apparent or rather silly reasons. why me? egad, how am i suppose to cope? i feel so hopeless. it's only the 2nd week of school and the pressure's already killing me. does everyone feel that way, or am i just putting too much on my shoulders? i am very well aware of how bad my maths and chemistry can be, so isnt it natural to worry? isnt it?
so many questions... gawd. SOMEONE ANSWER ME!
i cant take anymore. I CANT.
22 May 2009 at 20:15
dya want my books?
bahah. suck it in. tis only 18 months top