i went for a haircut just now. it felt great in the sense that i feel more light-headed (literally) now. my hair was quite long and was starting to flatten out, losing support. urgh. it was ugly and untidy and slobbish. euck. it was not the style i wanted but i'm contented. i dont even know how to describe the kind of cut i want. whatever.

now that my crowning glory's been pruned, the only thing i need sprucing up now is my skin.

GAWD. i am breaking out like i just hit puberty, where tonnes of testosterone spill into your system (incidentally, my skin was quite clear before i got to 15). having said that, i am not happy. stupid skin, why... WHY?! within an hour of cleansing, my nose is already glossy with sebum! within two, frankly, there would be enough to fry two eggs sunny-side up (you wouldn't want to do that). and the scars and redness and PIMPLES! the horror!

honestly, i would eat caterpillars if that's what it takes to get clear skin. i'd even... okay, let's not go there because i just had an image of katy perry kissing a girl in my head. hehehe... so yea, that is how desperate i truly am! this is a curse! A CURSE!

i was watching mtv truelife a few weeks ago and it was about 3 teens who had acne, as in really bad acne. i could totally relate to their emotions and self-image. the only boy on the show even cried when he couldnt get the meds required. it's roaccutane. one girl got it and her skin cleared up in a few months. I NEED SOME. but it's expensive. life is so unfair. SO UNJUST.

on a more serious note, i'm working at coffee bean & tea leaf starting 1st december. so do drop by and make my life hell if you could! by all means, puke on the ground, smash the cups, shout at me! i'd be laughing. and eventually i'd get fired. so good! mission accomplised.

anyway, if you dont have or havent had acne before, dont even bother saying anything. you dont know how it feels like.

i should just console myself. none of my friends have skin as bad as mine. so i cant talk to them and receive an appropriate response that would make me feel better. maybe it's just me. nothing can make me feel better, EXCEPT clear skin.

that concludes the rant of the day.



no sex no drugs no life no love on a day like this.