just last night, as i went down for a cup of water at midnight right before bedtime, she sees me and expresses her, let me emphasise here, utmost shock after realising i might not have had dinner. imagine me standing there under the harsh fluorescent light with a steel mug in my hand and MORE IMPORTANTLY, my mouth agape. maybe this is a result of me always - well, not always - having afternoon naps lasting 6 hours - once again, not all the time - but come on, i swear she saw me having dinner. i tell her i have had my dinner, only then does she recall seeing me at dinner time. SIGH.

oh shit, i'm still having that headache i got as a result of swishing my head around too fast in school. my classmates laughed at me because my fringe swished around too, much like in those shampoo ads. creepy, i know.

i'm thinking of becoming a doctor and joining Médecins Sans Frontières. it'll be difficult though, very difficult. i'd need a scholarship for university, which means i need four freaking As in my stpm, which is frankly kinda impossible. i want it so badly though. i want to help people so badly. i know i can help in other ways, and not just by being a doctor, but... it's complicated. and i dont want to be stuck in an office typing documents or giving presentations! i dont give a shit for that! i want to be in the field, where all the 'action' is.

my mum says i dont look like the type who'd go all out to do these kind of these things. i guess i surprise people... and i like that.