i wonder how some of those singer-songwriters make it happen, because they really know how to.

the songs they write and sing, it's just crazy because to me, how do you even think of such stuff? maybe i'm shallower than i thought, but whatever. some songs just have really, really insane/ inspirational/ out-of-the-blue/ nonsensical/ influential/ unique lyrics.

i dont think this applies exclusively to singer-songwriters. songwriters themselves too are just... urgh, impossible. it takes a lot of talent, imagination and creativity to write real songs that may or may not be mainstream, catchy or even popular. come to think of it, the songs you see at the top of some of those music charts? yea, the lyrics that go with them sometimes, when broken down, are seriously nothing you would like to shout about.

yes, they're crazily catchy.

Womanizer, Woman-Womanizer
You're a womanizer,
Oh womanizer, Oh you're a womanizer, baby
You, you, you are
You, you, you are
Womanizer, womanizer, womanizer

yes, they're just songs that you would love to sing along to.

Just dance, gonna be okay, da da doo-doo-mmm
Just dance, spin that record babe, da da doo-doo-mmm
Just dance, gonna be okay, d-d-d-dance
Dance, dance, just, j-j-just dance

but do they evoke an emotion or strike a chord? what sort of feeling that is, is difficult to describe because only you would know if you've felt it. does that make sense?

i dont want to write anymore because it's hard to write down what i'm thinking. right now, i dont see where this is going, so what's the point in continuing when i know what i'm writing will not be what i'm thinking? frankly, i just dont have a way with words, and that really gets me down. but the reason to why i even started, it's because of a few songs written by a real talented singer-songwriter. and off-topic: i dont want to judge, but people who listen to songs just because they're fast, catchy and whatever need to get a life. "what's wrong with that song?" "oh, it was boring." let's say the song in question was a slow one with the most meaningful lyrics ever. sure, you can listen to those catchy tunes, but people should listen to songs more for their lyrics then for their degree of catchy-ness.
(i think i just typed out what i really wanted to say after all this while, just in a way i didnt want to. *slaps forehead*)

but then, maybe i'm just being pushy.


anyway, in the end, i think i just expect so much of myself. in other words, i'm not happy with who i am and wished i was something more.


and btw? all those words you read at the end of each entry, 75% of the time they're part of a song that i've listened to, that i think really stands out or just relates to me in their own way. i didnt write any of them myself...

...but i really wish i did.





i'm bored of cheap and cheerful
i want expensive sadness