i'm having a bad day... which is probably a continuation of yesterday's bad day.

i guess everything was ok when i started work today. i'm usually very cheerful at work. but then at a certain point, it got so busy. it was customer after customer, order after order after order... what was worse was the fact that the manager was at the bank, leaving only me and another co-worker at the outlet. i obviously had to be the one in-charge because i was the only already certified barista in the house bwahaha my co-worker during that shift somehow had to be the trainee who doesnt speak english well, and what else, his reaction time is oh-so-goddamn slow.

i always treat everyone else who works with me nicely, but i blew my top today. i just felt like screaming at him. i just felt like scolding him and berating him for not using his brain. i wanted to stomp my feet and shout so badly because it was that bad. but no, i had to practise a certain level of restraint. with my back to the customers, i just put on a really ugly face and started screaming in a talking way at him. then i faced the next customer at the counter and smiled. "Good morning, sir/madam. May I take your order?"

so yea, it was intense.

there were espresso & brew orders, gourmet orders, ice blended orders, pastry & muffin & cakes orders... and there i was, forced to take orders while the they piled up behind me. then the nincompoop had to go to the kitchen to prepare the food. for god's sake! couldnt you just help me with the beverage orders outside first?! gawd, it was like an early judgement day.

but i recovered. a few hours later, i had to go home. and because of a certain incident yesterday, i just didnt feel like talking to anyone of family members. i'm not angry at them though, i just wasnt in the mood... i just didnt want to talk or to look at their faces. and for now, i dont think i can look at my dad the same way anymore. what happened yesterday was just so surreal, so incredulous, tears just started to well up in my eyes. and i hated every moment of it.

and of most of my wishes, i just wish i was never there to witness any of it.

i need a hug right now, but then, it's not like i want a hug from any of them.

oh well, i'm off to slaughter some zombies now and get the shit scared outta me in the process. lol... that's my kind of therapy.
bye bye~